This is not just hard. This is challenging. Difficult. Exhausting. Tiring. Frustrating. Overwhelming. Underwhelming. Complicated. Unexplainable. Slow. Random. Fast. Hot. Itchy. Confusing. Demanding. Sweaty. Restricting. Awkward. Constraining. Necessary.
The first month at site is not an easy time to be a Peace Corps Volunteer...but now it's May 1st and the month is over. Today marks the day I can move on my own, which should help alleviate some of my troubles. True to the ways of Thailand, I did not move to my apartment today. For a change, I am not upset, or annoyed, I actually expected it, because while integrating this past month I have been slowly learning that patience is a virtue. I thought I was relaxed and patient before, nope, not at all. Let's take a look at my past month: my integration process.
Instead of staying at my host family's home I have been living out of my backpack at my host family's home, my principal's home, and my co-teacher's home (where I have semi settled and stayed the past few weeks where I share a bed with my co-teacher). How silly of me to believe I would have this time to settle in and unpack my suitcase. The only thing I can be sure of every single day is that I will sweat. I am literally ALWAYS sweating. In other news...my principal had me make seafood pizza for dinner, and it turned out pretty good once I convinced him it can't be cooked in the microwave. My co-teacher's family owns a noodle shop so we spend a lot of time there and after hours I help her mom cook amazing meals for dinner. I help around the shop peeling garlic cloves, filling sauce to-go bags, and cleaned the shop floor after a flood (rainy season is beginning). I participated in Songkran, Thai new years. Everyone throws water on each other with buckets and water guns to cleanse each other while wearing flowery bright shirts and splatters colored paint on each other. I eat all the time, like sometimes go out to eat, then drive an hour to eat, then drive back to eat and after start cooking dinner...no lie. Napping is a big thing as well. I read so many books, like an unnatural amount. I said I like working out and running so am taken running often. I signed up for a 10K which is huge because before coming here I've never ran more than a 5K. After we we're allowed to leave site I spent a weekend in Bangkok, left my phone in a cab, I am not shocked and you shouldn't be either, and my friends gave me the positive push I needed to boost my spirits. Last week my region was chosen for a safety drill, to practice where we go and what we do in case of an emergency. Ten others and myself traveled to meet at an awesome hotel which lucky for me was only 30 minutes away, but as much further for everyone else. We stayed the night and felt free.
So this is obviously a short snipit of my last month at site, but a lot has happened. Except moving out, and settling in, that hasn't happened. Moral of the story: I don't know what will happen, or when things will happen most of the time. I'm learning to be okay with that. I do know school is starting this month...still not clear on the start date but today we had a staff meeting. The planning and room decorating will begin tomorrow and I am super excited. Yeah I have had really terrible, nearly unbearable days...but if I step back it's really not so bad. I am pretty lucky, and I only have two years left of these crazy experiences.